Dreams.

I often miss the little girl whose dreams had no barriers, no fears, who believed in a world where anything is possible, with a heart that was full and filled with hopes. To me, there's no such thing as a grown up. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own, but the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. We get bigger, we get taller, we get older, but for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids running around the playground trying desperately to fit in. 

Sometimes, I would love to blame Disney, for making me believe that I can have my Prince Charming, believe that one day I am going to be saved, that one day, one boy is going to come and change my whole lives around in the most perfect way. In the movies, there's no 'other woman', there's no deception. There's just happy ending, conditions and circumstances don't apply.

When I was a little girl, I love to read Peter Pan when I am not happy, and secretly hope that Peter Pan will come and find me and bring me to Neverland. Fly whenever I want, have fun with the cute seven little dwarfs, swimming under the sea, no worries, no cares, just me and maybe along with my Prince Charming and live happily ever after.

Do you ever have a dream guy or dream girl that you desired in heart since young? I do.

and yes, that's my Prince Charming.

My Prince Charming is someone who is tall. muscular, good looking, brown medium length hair, non Chinese (too much fairy tales), kind hearted and gentleman-like, with only an occasional tendency to be hot-tempered (which I found it cute), romantic, sporty, can cook ( I like good food),someone who is a little brooding, read with me,and someone I can have good conversation with, a good fight, someone who will always keep me guessing and make me laugh.

( Silent, lost words.)

But I guess I prefer the reality more although sometimes it sucks. Reality made me a stronger,better person, I guess. A girl that filled with insecurities and fears but keep staying optimistic and try her very best to learn how to trust everyone, be grateful, have faith and believe everything will be fine because it just will.

Good day.